I am ashamed, in ways, to talk about how lazy I am. There are factors involved in my laziness<\/strong>, including mental health issues<\/strong> and my physical ailments<\/strong>, but let\u2019s face it, I\u2019m still lazy, and would be if I was in perfect health. Of course, there are opposing ideas to this, the most important being my desire to be successful with the work I love.<\/p>\n I can say that if nothing else gets done, I will be responsible<\/strong>. As long as I can face the day, I can conquer being a lazy person long enough to keep from going under. I\u2019m not pleased with this aspect of myself and wish that I was more active. Being a lazy person with a restless mind just keeps the war waging<\/strong>.<\/p>\n But if it wasn\u2019t for that war, I wouldn\u2019t have the push<\/strong> I need to move forward. Seems okay, right? Not really, there are struggles when being a lazy person with a restless mind. Other than the obvious, of course.<\/p>\n Okay, it\u2019s hard enough being restless and yet not wanting to face the world, but to have outside influences<\/strong> become a distraction<\/strong> makes it even worse. It\u2019s like walking through the thickest sludge, with a weight strapped to your ankle. <\/p>\n First, you fight your lack of motivation<\/a>, any mental imperfections and then you have to wrestle with other people, other responsibilities and then the weather.<\/p>\n Outside influences also give you an excuse to be more of a lazy person<\/strong>. Have you used any of these excuses, \u201cOh, it\u2019s too cold to go for a run<\/em>\u201d, or \u201cI really need to organize my desk before starting that project.<\/em>\u201d Just say NO<\/a>! Say no to procrastination because you are actually making distractions that aren\u2019t there.<\/strong><\/p>\n I\u2019m not a bad person, but I am guilty of this as well, and every little crowd or family member, coming by for a visit, makes me want to take a nap. Lately, I grit my teeth and complete responsibilities whether the house is empty or full of people. If they’re ignored while I work, they should’ve known better. This is war, this is the push\u2026.let it happen…fight fight fight!<\/strong><\/p>\n Another struggle of being a lazy person with a restless mind<\/a> is dealing with criticism<\/strong>. I am a writer, and I know my job is real, and most other writers know my job is real. <\/p>\n To my family, my job may be semi-real<\/strong>. To them, I can stop working at any time and tend to their issues. They are lazy too, and this doesn\u2019t help matters. They have seen me clean like a mad woman, scrubbing baseboards and rearranging cabinets. In their minds, I can stop and become Superwoman at the drop of a dime. Sigh\u2026.<\/p>\n I am lazy, and yet, I have the ability to get almost supernatural amounts of work done in a day. When motivated, I can complete projects, cook dinner and even play referee when my kids are fighting. But on other days, I am distracted by everything and sleepy at the same time. <\/p>\n The struggle becomes redundant when others fail to understand my mental strongholds and fail to recognize and respect my work<\/strong>. I have good days and bad, but to my family and friends, I am the same person, just with bad attitudes when I refuse to be Superwoman for them. So, which do I lack more,\u00a0focus<\/a>\u00a0or understanding?<\/p>\n The struggle is mine and mine alone<\/strong>. Despite the impact my issues have on others, it remains my demon. To have a restless mind, always searching, thinking and creating but with sometimes no will to carry out duties is heartwrenching. Some days I think about being stuck in this place and it makes me sob.<\/p>\n It\u2019s like being in a body that cannot do what it wishes and dreams about every single day.\u00a0It takes strength sometimes to get out of bed in the morning. This condition, and it is a condition, takes willpower to balance<\/strong>. In order to keep a happy medium between not wanting to be active, tackling your daily responsibilities<\/a> and having too many goals in mind, you have to find balance<\/strong>.<\/p>\nThe struggle is real, and focus is fleeting.<\/h3>\n
The struggle is redundant and disrespectful.<\/h3>\n
The struggle is mine.<\/h3>\n
The struggle is yours.<\/h3>\n